I am a thinker (not a feeler). I live in my head. I process all things through a criteria of right and wrong. I make logical and rational decisions.
But 2020 was neither logical or rational and at times it was downright insane!
I had to learn how to get out of my head and into my body.
It wasn’t about numbing out my thoughts, it was about allowing myself space to feel.
I started asking different questions.
Rather than focusing on what I should or shouldn’t be doing, I asked, what would feel good right now?
I focused on what brought me pleasure. What filled my cup.
Sometimes this came in the form of non-kid time, but truly this was just an everyday switch.
In the morning I got up, got dressed, put on makeup and did my hair.
I created a celebration play list and danced with my kids to the best music of the early 2000’s.
I’d soak my feet while my kids took a bath and rub salt scrub up and down my legs.
If I didn’t feel like picking up the house, I didn’t.
If I didn’t feel like playing another round of Go Fish, I didn’t.
I worked at silencing the little voice in my head that told me I should be doing something and focused instead on what my body said I needed…which was always a little bit of love.
Turns out, I can live with a lot more mess than I thought.
I don’t have to cook every meal every night.
The holidays can be special with just the 4 of us.
I can turn off my email and stop working at night when I want.
I can do so much more than I ever thought if I just get out of my brain and listen to my body.
What would feel good to you today? I give you permission to do it.
